I was born with having female mind whether if that's a
mischief of God...
When I was little, I couldn't do anything about that even though I had a doubt about my body. I have also suffered from pains in my mind because I couldn't accept the fact of not being able to get pregnant.
At that time, painting of pictures saved my life. Even though I cannot get pregnant and have babies, I can paint pictures of children....Painting of pictures has become of the only way for me to confirm, ''I am here.''
To know about children more, I started to work at the nursery school. While involving with those children, I have found one thing about them. That is, children are like a ''mirror of reflecting this society''
Children are thinking more than we think. They are also very hard workers than we think.Children cannot live without depending on adults. Therefore, they try to be smarter to accommodate with their environments. Some children can change themselves freely because of adults. A sense of incongruity, loneliness, and unreasonableness are created inside of those children because of pure minds...
Children have many complicated feelings more than we think. Children are not good at expressing their feeling into words, but their eyes are telling all of this society. To see facial expressions and eyes of children means to see our society.
Since I found this fact, I have been expressing feelings of children with paintings. I will probably keep painting of children for rest of my life. Therefore, I will be able to confront the fact my body is not female.